So a new Rite Aid
opened up in South
River and I had the
circular that I got
in the mail that
showed all the
things that were
going to be on sale.
Great sales, like 10
lbs. of cat littler
for .77 cents,
things I really
wanted to stock up
on, having four
cats! I found a
number of things I
didn’t really need,
but for that price,
I found room to need
it. And after
wandering around the
store – it was
pretty quiet in
there – I had a
shopping cart that
was fairly full. I
went to get in line,
and as I was walking
up to the single
cashier, I saw a
woman that had only
two things – a can
of dog food and a
can of peas. So I
thought to myself,
“I’m going to let
this woman go ahead
of me because I have
about 35 things in
my basket, and it’s
going to take me a
while to check out.”
Besides, the way we
walked up at almost
the same time, it
was arguable who was
first anyhow, so I
nodded to her,
indicating that she
should go first.
She was
gracious and said,
“Thank you,” and I
felt real good about
myself. I thought,
“That was nice of
me. I’m a good
person. I’m a good
Christian. I’m good
to strangers. And
even though I’m not
going to get
anything for it and
nobody’s looking,
I’m happy because
I’m doing the right
thing.” Besides, I
wasn’t in any big
hurry – I didn’t
have any kids to
pick up from soccer,
and maybe this lady
did. Or maybe she
just wanted to get
home and feed her
dog.
Just as she was
getting her change
and her receipt, I
saw an older man
walk up behind me in
my peripheral vision
and all he had was a
newspaper. He had
his wife with him,
and she was using a
walker. Well, I had
just let the woman
with two things go
ahead of me, so I
had to let this
elderly couple go
ahead of me, too. I
mean, all he had was
a .35 newspaper. I
asked him to please
go ahead of me, and
he, too, was very
grateful. As he was
handing over his
dollar to pay, his
hand was shaking a
little and I felt
even better about
letting him go ahead
of me so he could
get back to his
house and read his
paper.
Just as he was
leaving, two more
people walked up
behind me who also
had only one or two
items each. So I
looked up at the
ceiling – that’s
usually where I look
for God, up in the
ceiling when I’m
indoors
J
and I shook my head
and I thought, “You
have a real sense of
humor, God! Are you
testing me to see
how many times I’ll
be a good Christian?
Well, I can play
that game, too! It’s
on! Bring it!”
So
I let both of them
go ahead of me. And
this did turn into
quite an ordeal. The
thing is, don’t ever
challenge God to a
game because he’s a
much better player
than we are. This
went on for a good
twenty minutes.
Every time it looked
like the flow of
people in the store
was at a lull, then
someone else with
one item would come
up behind me with
that pleading look
in their eyes,
hoping they wouldn’t
have to wait behind
me with my big old
cart full of stuff.
And as I kept
letting people in
front of me, I
thought, “I wonder
if this is what it’s
like just a little
crumb, just the tip
of the iceberg, to
be God in terms of
how many people will
I let go ahead of
me?” And when I told
this to Pastor, she
reminded me of a
passage from Matthew
where Peter was
asking Jesus how
many times to
forgive – was it 3?
Or 7? And the answer
was “7 times 70”.
And like a goof, I
started to do the
math, and pastor saw
the wheels turning
in my head and said
“It’s not a math
problem. Seven means
completeness.
Total.” So it means
forever. So don’t do
the math. It’s 490,
but don’t do the
math.
I realized how
amazing it was,
that if that’s
what it’s like
to be God, even
just in the
tiniest little
bit, when people
keep asking you
for favors,
pleading with
their eyes, as
if to say,
“Please don’t
make me wait
behind you while
you check out
with your 35
items when I
only have one
little thing
that I need to
get out of her
with.” By the
time
I got out of the
store, my feet
were sore
because I’d been
standing at the
cashier waiting
to check out for
about a half an
hour. But I
thought, what a
tiny but cool
glimpse of what
it’s like to
have people
lined up,
wanting
something from
you. Kind of
like when we
pray to God, all
of us lined up
with our
gratitude and
our requests.
I’m sure that
some of those
people in line
were silently
praying that I’d
let them go
ahead of me. And
I had it in my
power to give
that to them.
That was so
neat.
I realized that
God is patient
and
compassionate
way beyond
anything we can
even imagine
from where we
stand.
Like God
in the story of
Jonah, and like
the message of
Jesus’ parable
of the workers,
God isn’t fair.
And
that’s a really
good thing--for
us.
God is
far more
generous, more
patient, more
forgiving, more
loving than we
humans could
ever be.
Like the
parables Jesus
told, my
experience at
the Rite-Aid was
a glimpse into
the heart of
God.
The next story
I’d like to
share with you
focuses on the
power of prayer,
and of the
necessity to be
on the
look-out for God
at work all the
time.
As many of you may
know, I used to
travel from NJ to
Hartford, CT
nearly every week on
business. It's a 3
hour and 45 minute
ride via Amtrak. The
last time I took the
train, it was nearly
an hour late, and it
was 98 and sticky
while I was waiting
for the train. I
wasn't in a great
mood to start out
with.
Some stupid stuff
happened at work
earlier in the week
and I spent the
entire train ride
alone, trying to de-grumpify
myself (sorry, I
know that's not a
real word!) . I even
said a
silent prayer
that God help me
find some peace of
mind. Usually when I
pray, I start by
thanking God for the
things I have and
then asking for what
I need of Him. That
night, though, I was
so grumpy, my prayer
went something like,
"Is a
little peace of mind
asking so much??" as
I looked up at the
ceiling of the
train. Wow, what a
crumby prayer! I
knew even as I said
it that I I was a
lousy Christian and
probably didn't
deserve the peace of
mind I so
ineloquently
demanded of God --
thankfully, whether
we deserve
God's gifts
is not at the top of
the list when God
grants them (thank
you, Grace!).
When the
announcement was
made that Hartford
was the next station
stop, there were 5
of us waiting by the
door -- everyone in
that car was exiting
at Hartford.
I noticed, because I
notice things like
this, that we were
all women. We were
all in our late 30s
to mid 40s. We all
stood in silence,
loitering near the
door to exit as the
train started to
slow down.
One woman, a petite
black woman was
staring off into
space with tears in
her eyes. I think we
all noticed, but so
as not to intrude on
what might have been
a private or
embarrassing moment,
no one said
anything.
Finally, as we were
pulling into the
station, I touched
her shoulder and
said, "I'm sorry to
bother you, but are
you okay?"
And she burst out
with, "No, I'm not!
I just lost my Momma
last week and we
buried her 2 days
ago!" And she began
openly weeping.
I kept my hand on
her shoulder and
said with a lump in
my throat, "This
August, it
will be 5 years
since I lost my
Mother. I wish I
could tell you that
it gets easier, but
it doesn't."
Then the woman to my
right spoke up with
a voice choked with
tears and said, "I
lost my Mother 3
years ago, and she's
right -- it doesn't
get easier, but you
will feel better
over time. You'll
still miss her,
though."
Then the woman
closest to the train
door, who already
had tears running
down her face, said,
"I lost my Mother 4
years ago, and I
know how hard it is.
But she's in a
better place now."
Finally, the woman
next to her said, "I
lost my Mother 2 and
a half years ago and
I still reach to
pick up the phone to
call her when
something happens in
my life I want to
share."
The woman by the
door, looked at all
of us and said,
"When I want to pick
up the phone, I just
look up at heaven
and say, 'Hey Mom,
guess what just
happened?'"
And we all laughed a
little, and wiped
our collective
tears.
The black woman
said, "I can't
believe we all lost
our Mothers! We're
not that old!" And
we looked at each
other and laughed
again.
Then the Train's
Conductor came
barreling in and
yelled, "Hartford!
Station stop,
Hartford!" And we
all jumped. He
apologized for
startling us, and
asked if we were
okay, seeing that we
were all wiping
tears away and
sniffling.
We shared with him
that the one lady
had lost her Mother
and we were trying
to comfort her.
As he helped us all
off the train, he
said that he lost
his Mother one and a
half years ago, and
he still missed her
terribly.
All 6 of us stood
near the train and
the grieving woman
said, "A few hours
ago, when I first
got on this train, I
asked God to give me
a sign that my
Mother was in a
better place, and
that I wasn't
alone."
We all laughed aloud
and one of the other
women said, "Is this
enough of a sign for
you? What are the
odds that all of us
lost our Mother and
happened to sit on
the same train, and
all happened to get
off in Hartford, and
even the Conductor
lost his Mother!"
The black woman
looked at all of us
in wonder and said,
"God really did
answer my prayer."
And then, as if to
punctuate her
remark, a bolt of
lightning lit up the
sky and the sky
opened up and a
downpour of rain
began that
immediately soaked
us all to the skin,
and we laughed out
loud.
And over the
downpour, I yelled,
"In case you didn't
get it before, I
think this really is
your sign from God!"
And we all laughed,
did a soggy group
hug and went our
separate ways.
I realized that if I
hadn't asked the
woman on the train
if she was okay, she
would have gone on
about her night
feeling isolated and
abandoned, and as if
God had not heard
her prayer at all.
I now know what the
expression, "The
spirit moved me"
means: When God
poked me in the ribs
until I decided to
speak up on the
train.
I'm honored to have
been the catalyst in
a meaningful way for
this poor, suffering
woman.
I've had so many
prayers of my own
answered, they are
too numerous to
count. But I cannot
recall a time when
I've been so
obviously part of
the answer to
someone else's
prayer! How cool is
that!
And at the very same
time, my own "demand
prayer" to God for
peace of mind was
answered as well --
there is nothing
like being part of
something bigger
than yourself to
pull you out of your
own misery.
And if there's a
moral to the story,
it's this: the next
time you feel the
spirit move you, an
inner nudge, that
little voice telling
you to speak up or
take action or reach
out or make that
phone call, act upon
it! You might be a
part of the answer
to someone else's
prayer. So don't be
shy or embarrassed.
The odds of 6 middle
aged people all
losing their Mothers
on the same train
are so staggering,
it leaves me with no
doubt that God is up
there, doing His
thing. And we need
to remember to let
him use us to help
answer prayers for
others. Let us pray.